The knowledge of now.

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She sat at the kitchen table with a wine glass and all the what ifs, what weres and what could’ve beens floated in the glass and the bread began to rise. She thought about the summer of 1956. But actually it was difficult to picture much more than a blur of an album of photographs. Everyone fading. She heard fleets of conversations. Saw some memory of palm, with fingers inching. Smiled. She hummed the words to Happy Birthday. Smelt chalk and lawns and linen. She felt she felt the world beyond the veil and she frowned.

The clatter of sunlight sabres and shadow on the water. The warhorse in the hollows, rearing in the swell, off the West Pier, on a Sunday morning.

From here, a tired enlightenment accrued, tumbling. An accumulation of thoughts, of laughters, of feelings (like happiness and sorrow) of fears. The knuckles and the kneaded bread; the blend of tears, of wine, of years; of present, of memory. The aroma of the knowledge of now. She toed the floor, tipping glances into it.

She wondered of family. And she wondered if he ever allowed himself the luxury, the luxurious wonder of that past, peculiar dream. It was something that never rose to the surface. It remained beneath glass. The image caused her to suddenly say a word out loud.

She listened to the silence and watched herself in the lively oven glass, held there in glimmer and reflection, a study in soft focus: representation of woman in kitchen. She slipped into that space and withdrew to another time, brought back to the present by the sound of the unseen waves bringing the shingle.

She thought she might go outside and walk the shore. But thought again. There was the loaf to think about, the arrival of Tim (she glanced at the clock and found it, for some moments, not to be moving). Anyway, she realised at last, her boots were in the car, so that settled that.

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25 thoughts on “The knowledge of now.”

  4. Oh, my. Nick, this is absolutely enchanting, arresting. …”representation of woman in kitchen.” There are ghosts in this. I love it. It reads like a painting, the way a painting is all at once, but the longer you study it, the more it speaks to you.

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      1. ….and velvet paintings with eyes which follow you across the room, and dark nights and faded souls … have you ever read any of Michael Donaghy’s works? Shibboleth, Errata, … his poetry was full of ghosts and haunts and the beauty of the strangeness of the seeing through of things, a face in a face in a mirror, or such eerieness like this…. I shiver just to think of it, even just now. xo
        P.S. Did you say “Queen”? 😉

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      3. Oh! Let’s light a candle and venture to see, something sinister this way comes….
        You are so very welcome, N. Reeves. 🙂 And I do hope you have a wonderful weekend! xo
        P.S. …I’m just a poor boy nobody loves me…

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      1. It was my lazy way of saying much of what others had said above… plus a bunch of other things… it’s nice to read lit like this, truly poetic prose, truly sightful seeing, nice, nice, when a man writes a woman like this, real, real. Real. But beautiful

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